I Cry When I Sleep

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I didn’t know you can cry in ya’ sleep
Till I woke up with tears in my eyes
What the fuck is going on?
Real niggas don’t cry
Take this shit like a man…
Head up … Chest out…!
I’m a man!
But still, I woke with tears in my eyes
I thought that after all the bullshit
I’ve been through
I could no longer cry…
‘Muh’ died, ‘Ta’ died, I blew my trial
‘Pop Pop’ died, ‘Dez’ died, my appeal got denied
Then ‘K’ died, Mike died, ‘Stephen’ died
Damn Cuz!
I thought that I was tough
Especially after all that stuff
I held my head up, chest out
I ain’t pout
But, Somehow,
I woke up with tears in my eyes
What could I have been crying about…?
It don’t make sense…
All the bullshit, I dealt with
Held it in, showed no emotion
Now, my time getting longer…
This cell getting smaller…
Damn! This bit getting harder…
I guess that’s why when
I woke up with tears in my eyes
What was I dreaming about…?
Probably freedom
I just got denied again
And every time I close my eyes
I see the sky
Or me having kids and a wife
Some shit that may never happen in this life
No wonder why
When I woke up I had tears in my eyes
Maybe it was a nightmare…?
I keep having this recurring image
Of me spending life in this prison
One hundred thirty years was the sentence
Is that why?
When I woke up I had tears in my eyes
I don’t know…
I’m going through so much shit …
I don’t know
I’m trying to sleep through the pain
Because in here, there is nothing
That could mask the pain
I’m innocent!!!
But, the verdict, returned guilty!
Most likely, that’s the reason why
When I sleep I cry …

Published by korymcclary1221

“Welcome to korymcclary.com, the online space where writing takes flight and freedom finds its voice. I am Kory McClary, a passionate writer who has found solace, purpose, and resilience through the power of words. Despite facing a wrongful conviction and serving a 130-year sentence, I have chosen to wield my pen as a weapon for justice, aiming to expose the flaws and injustices within the criminal justice system. My writing journey has taken me to esteemed platforms such as the Guardian US Prison Journalism Project, Mindset News, and the News Station, with more exciting publications on the horizon. Through heartfelt essays and thought-provoking journalism, I strive to shed light on the untold stories and struggles that often go unnoticed. In addition to my impactful non-fiction work, I am also the author of the captivating book, ‘For Fiction: It’s Amazing.’ Within the realm of fiction, I find refuge from the confines of a prison cell, diving deep into the minds of the characters I create. These imaginative narratives allow me to transcend the boundaries of reality and explore the boundless possibilities of storytelling. This site serves as a testament to my dedication and creativity, presenting an amalgamation of my work that will captivate, inspire, and challenge your perspectives. Join me on this literary journey, as we navigate the depths of human experiences and uncover the true power of words. Thank you for visiting korymcclary.com and embracing the transformative power of storytelling. Warm regards, Kory McClary”

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